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Wed, 09 Apr 2003 02:20:45 GMT

b-i-n-g-o and bingo is his name o!...has been stuck in my head.. i was whistling it all day, annoying. so yea i got into mcgill, almost everybody knows that, i made sure..i would have put up a picture of me smiling w/ my new red mcgill shirt except for the fact that the bookstore fuckers don't know that medium isn't actually XXL. it came down to my knees, and didn't shrink. so now i sleep in a shirt that cost me over 50 cause i was impatient and decided to make the 'rents pay for ups overnight shipment. i haven't been doing any work this marking period, but i scrape by. suttile was going to give me a C but then she realized i was upset about it so on monday she told me she can't give me a c cause she likes me too much, score. so now i have to promise to make an amazing piece of kick arse pottery, i was thinking of doing a vase in teh shape of fat woman's naked body but mishbag told me that was too cliche. i totally missed homeless to harvard on lifetime.. i'm such a loser, thora birch is my awkward hero. mueller's 18 and we celebrated at pannyb ofcourse. we got her this giant 10 ft. pink cross balloon, meant for easter? it was hilarious, it wouldn't really fit in the car. then this woman came up to us and said happy birthday in both english and sign language. i'm so excited for the westorange exchange. those kids are so cool and so indian, come on ..u know ur cool when ur fav. food is samosas, if you want to come, ask me for a permission slip. my dad finally set up the totalbody1000, i didn't even know i had muscles in teh places where i'm aching. i should be reading waiting for godot, but i'd rather re-read white oleander for teh fifthyedk bagillion time, i made myself promise never to watch the movie because it would probably totally ruin my now perfect perception of the flawed characters. i need to read more, does anybody have any suggestions for good reads?

Sat, 01 Mar 2003 22:51:40 GMT

i got into U OF TORONTO!!! WOOHOOOOooooooo! number 2 taken care of, and i find out about mcgill at the end of march, that's so soon! i already told my parents to have standby paramedics waiting for me by the mailbox. if i get in they will buy me their t-shirt online and pay for express mail so i can get it two days after i get the letter. sooo if i'm wearing the shirt.. you'll obviously know. jesus my hands are gettin sticky already

told you i was a korean baby

Thu, 27 Feb 2003 01:54:56 GMT

i tried to get chenita but i'm a big loser and it didn't work.....CHUT UP!

Wed, 19 Feb 2003 17:45:54 GMT

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Fri, 14 Feb 2003 21:34:27 GMT

"No-one can assert today that the path of war will be shorter than that of the inspections. No-one can claim either that it might lead to a safer, more just and more stable world, for war is always the sanction of failure."

It amazes me at the number of ignorant people in this community who have made up their minds, and agree that war is the only resolution to the problem in Iraq. Not only are the statements made out of stupidity and anger, but they categorize those who are against the war as being anti-american, traitors and pussies. There is a clear difference between supporting your president because you believe he is right and supporting your president because you feel like you have an obligation to do so.

42% of this country still believes that Saddam was involved in September 11th when many foreign ministers and even chief UN weapons inspector Hans Blix have asserted that Powell’s claim that Saddam and Al Queda are in alliance with each other is completely false with no evidence backing any of the allegations. There is no proof that Saddam has weapons of mass destruction, and the inspectors have clearly expressed that Saddam has been cooperating more and more with increased pressure from the U.N. I totally agree that Saddam obviously has to be stopped, and I wish that some crazy maniac could just go into Iraq and shot the tyrant, but obviously we can’t wait for that. 12 years has been too long to wait for Saddam to cooperate and something needs to be done. But war most definitely isn’t the best option.

We aren’t being directly threatened by Iraq, we haven’t any evidence to support that Iraq wants to attack the U.S., yet our unintelligent president is getting trigger happy again. If the situation was different, and let’s say Russia decided that Iraq was a direct threat to Russia, few countries would have allied with Russia and said ‘yep, we agree, let’s go in and start a war’. the U.S.’s influence on this world is clearly evident, and you start to wonder if the countries who are in alliance with the U.S. are doing so out of economic fear. The inspectors clearly said that many weapons have not been accounted for, but have said that more time and cooperation from Saddam is the best resolution. And you know what, if Saddam throws out inspectors and refuses to fully co-operate and the U.N. agrees that military action should be taken, I fully support the war. But Bush has the attitude that we don’t give a fuck about what the rest of the world says, Saddam is a direct threat to the U.S. and we are going to start this war even if we are the only ones. Can you say world war III? Isn’t it obvious that such a clear division on this issue will end up in a war involving not just the U.S and the UK. vs. Iraq?

If you know that a kid in your class has had a few run ins with the law, is obviously very violent and carries a few knifes in his pocket, do you attack him because ur scared he’ll attack you first? Or do you wait until the whole class agrees that the safety of the students is being threatened and everybody together should attack and ‘disarm’ him? And as the French foreign minister de Villepin said "The use of force against Iraq is not justified today; there is an alternative to war, and that is to disarm Iraq through inspections". Saddam has been given enough time, everybody knows that. The world is now pressuring him to cooperate and slowly but surely he is, so why jump into a war that will end innocent lives when realistically all we need is more time? "Force can be resorted to, but only when all other remedies have been exhausted. We have not yet reached that point."

Mon, 10 Feb 2003 04:13:46 GMT

maybe since it's late (well for me anyway) i'm not going to write my usual, fake bullshit taht keeps ppl from asking questions and maintains some kindof purpose for keeping a livejournal. if i died tomorrow, i would regret the fact that deep down i feel like a failure. not failure in teh sense that i'm not goin anywhere career wise, or i'm going to end up dependent on a man who will eventually control what i do, no matter how independent i think i am. i feel like i'm a failure because i haven't made a difference yet, a difference in a life, an experience, a dream, or even a conversation. i don't think that i am a bad person, but am i a good person? i'm not one for purgatory, i feel like either you have to devote urself entirely to one cause, whether it be destructive or postive and you have to stick ot it, and then at the end you ahve a sense of accomplishment. in a sense i can understand suicide bombers, they died for a cause that they truly believe in, even though they have fucked up logic in what they believe is good. would i do that? would i have the courage, or do i just lack the direction and drive? my vulnerability scares me because i'm so inclined to just jump head first into the next big thing that will seem like a good idea. i want to make a difference, and i want to be remembered by my actions, not by my aspirations. right now is probably teh most difficult, cause i'm in limbo and there aren't any major decisions for me to make and little things are bothering me more and more. but i feel like everyone surrounding me has a purpose, or is just inthe depths of patheticness (yes, i made that word up) but nobody's inbetween. that gets lonely, when you don't know if everybody's feelin the same way you are. maybe i care too much. i just don't want to do something drastic..just for the sake of bigness, purpose and maybe ultimately just boredom.

'yea, right now i really want to go home, crawl in my bed and die' - me

Thu, 06 Feb 2003 04:24:49 GMT

lil stressed but amanda took me to jazzercise today, it was soo cool , they had the ball things and we danced to techno and the instructor looked like teh actress that plays the other sister. i asked my mom if we could do it reguarly together, u know bond, and she's like i'm busy. i got dissed and dismissed by my mum. its nice that i can now go out after school, although i'm running out of money. 'i've been doing for this 19 years, u wanna fight me, fight these tears' making of dmx's x gonna give it to u was on again. in one scene w/ all the ruff riders in teh back of him and they are walking down the street as x is rapping, a camera crew guy walks in front of teh scene to correct something and x goes crazy, they had to hold him down 'did you just ruin my fuckin shot? dumb ass motherfucker, don't fuck w/ me' then two secs later he's praying in front of the camera 'what i do, i do for you, you have given me this life, i will accept this life, grrrrr (randomly growls like dog)' aaahhhhh i have the stupid lesbian russian song in my head 'all the things she said, running through my head' ur running through my head, motherfuckers!! i haaaate you t.A.T.U. i finally played vice city w/ jeff, it was so fun although i had soo much trouble bangin the prostitutes even after painstakingly jumping a hot car and beeping my horn, its more fun just running them over. then we watched the climax of requiem and we all repeated the dialogue 'i like the red dress, harry, i like the television' 'ma, will ya calm down, i can hear u from here, they got you on uppers eh ma? that stuff will kill ya ma' 'i'm lonely harry, i like the red dress' hha what a good movie, i cna't make fun of it really because that would sacreligious or something. 'go shorty it's ur birthday, we goin to sip bacardi like it's ur birthday'

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Thu, 16 Jan 2003 02:41:14 GMT

mix it up day was today... let's just say i learned. and i hope that everyone else participated learned a lesson about the skills of communcation, patience and optimism which many don't possess.... and no i'm not talking about the double order from two different huan woks showing up. haha. i should be studying for exams right now but i kinda of wanted to finish imitating pop punk bands with my sister, mtv2 simple plan as inspiration. the two of us doing the bobbing then the big jump thing, then imitating teh yoga stance that hte guitarist/side singer does when he leans with one foot forward and stretches his neck to the microphone. haha they are just as bad as o-town, all those poppunk bands have a template model to follow, determining the clothes, hair and playing stances used. videogames with jeff sounds like fun except that his stupid job restricts us to a timeslot. as if being bagger is more important than videogames. i failed another bio test, so did 90% of our class, and it kinda mattered .. but the video we watched was worth it, sex chromosomes and questions from moscow. janiqua emailed me!! it was funny cause she first sent me this reminder of lil romeo's appearance on bet or something, randomly. i haven't talked to the girl since camp, but i emailed her back and she's so adorable, really formal in her emails mixed in with the ghetto slang. i don't think i'm going to do kiwago next year, it doesn't pay enough and working in london for the summer sounds better even if it means ihave to stay w/ teh grandparents. now i have to check icq. i'm going to make tomorrow a good day
"going to start a revolution from my bed"

Sat, 14 Dec 2002 02:18:18 GMT

deferred, everybody's deferred,ugh. wtf, if valedictorians aren't getting into Harvard, who is?? i'm feeling the same as everybody else right now, i want out. now. i can't stand it anymore. it was tolerable for 5 yrs. i feel like i've come to a complete stand still, nothing's moving in the forward direction and to hear juniors complaining about how they want out (keep in mind this same junior has been credited with saying "why is it called high school if you aren't allowed to get high?) and i keep having scary dreams. last nights: sharon is pulling out of the driveway adn i open the mailbox and see the letter. i open it not paying attention to the size, for some reason ihave a smile on my face. i look at what it says. i fall to the ground and start convulsing. blood begins to drip from my mouth and ears. the neighbors dog begins to lap up the blood. my hair starts to fall out, i'm twitching adn my eyes roll to the back of my head. sharon looks down from the driver's seat. then she pulls off and goes home cause she has to let her new puppy out to pee before her mom gets home. i wake up. ??? did i have that reaction cause i got in or cause i got rejected? i've never wanted something so badly. i can't describe it, it just fits, the second i stepped on campus, talking with the psych director, sitting in jeff's small dorm, laughing with the big black taxi driver, even finding my vomit in the sink the next morning. it fit. i have it all envisioned. i'm twisted.

yes, i do still have a livejournal

Sat, 05 Oct 2002 00:10:10 GMT

finally people around me are showing me that they are intelligent opinonated people who are worth my time. unfortunatly most of the opinions that are expressed i don't agree with. if you read this and it applies to you.. don't assume it refers to you.

after talking to haney about why my mom walked out of the church when she was 18 (long story, ask if you want to know), he tried to convince me that if you believe in your religion it is your duty to spread it because you believe it is right. i explained to him that different religions are right for different people, just as christianity is right for him, sikhism is right for me. that's what makes me me and him him, but he thought it was black and white. christianity is the right religion and all other religions are wrong, therefore he must try and convert all others around him if we all belonged to the same religion, same culture, had the same tastes, opinions etc. this world would be extremely boring, there would be no need for language because we all would have the same thoughts. he has to learn science evolution in school but doesn't believe anything that he gets A's on. He thinks the big bang theory is ridiclous and that Adam and Eve and the whole God plopped everything on the world bullshit. i can't even to begin to argue because it frustrates me too much. but the difference between haney and many other christians i know, is that he is able to have a normal, intelligent conversation with me about things he knows we will always disagree about, he is interested in other people's opinions though he will never agree. most others are either meek and only believe in what they believe in because they have been taught to do so, and never have thought to .. gosh .. question why they believe what they believe?? profound theory isn't it? then there are the fanatics who argue with you until ur both screaming and red in the face adn the christian goes, well you don't believe in jesus and ur gonna go to hell...uhh huhhh now i understand..? i love political/religious confrontation if its in an orderly matter where i can liste to you and you listen me. speaking of politics...

i'm a strict democrat, here's why: pro-choice, as a woman i have a right to what i do with my body. a fetus is not a baby. an unborn baby is better than one born to a 13 yr old teen who gives it up for adoption, it instead goes through years of foster care, most likely sexually and or physically abused, then it lives in poverty for the rest of its miserable life and dies. which would you choose? that scenario wasn't pulled out of my ass, think outside the america box and that is what ahppens to unwanted babies in majority of third world countries.
democrats leave religion, in most cases, out of schools, jails, hospitals, etc. while republicans insist on trying to bring back in, church and state are separate for a reason. i go to school to learn about things that will prepare me for the future, religion is my responsibilty and has nothing to do with my education. republicans are notoriously known for being small-minded, prejudicious dickwads, alright i added the last part but out of the two parties republicans are known to dislike gays and minorities. they also have been known to repress teh role of women in today's society, ideal republican woman: god fearing christian whose responsibility it is to stay home with kids, clean, cook and be pretty.
democrats are also more receptive to alternative ideas when it comes to the war issue. here's what i believe: while i'm not a strict pacifist, i do think that war/violence is never the right answer. do negotiations work all the time? no. is it realistic not to have war? no. But republicans are trigger-happy. bush can't wait to get out his little pistol and starting wavin' at saddam, he wants to be the big macho hero and save the day. he has motives other than those of hte american people and more importantly of the world. its not always about america, america, america. he shouldn't listen to the un cause then we'd lose our power, is what i've been hearing in the news a lot. oh god, what would happen if america wasn't fuckin number one? would americans all of a sudden go backwards and become savage idiots? no, americans would become more humble and respectful of the rest of the world (yes it does exist).

i hate to break it to you but in general, though everything has its exceptions, americans are self-centered. do i say this harsh statement out of stupidity and "dumb canadian pride". No i say this as a person who has lived in 5 different countries, i've lived in different cultures, from completely neutral (switzerland) to completely repressive, ex. not allowingn women to go anywhere outside of the home without her husband, or male relative by her side (saudi arabia). so please try to have an open mind and entertain the idea that the u.s isn't the best at everthing in this world. be patriotic but don't be arrogant and condenscending towards other nations that in all likelyhood have a greater amount of culture than the u.s. will ever have.

sorry this was so long, but i feel strongly about what i wrote, i do welcome all comments, i do wanna know if you agree or disagree with me and why

Sat, 24 Aug 2002 16:08:18 GMT

i'm turning seventeen tomorrow and i still don't have my permit. as my girls would say, that's mad grimy, yo

k is for kiwago

Thu, 01 Aug 2002 16:15:57 GMT

right on my shoulders, pick up your bags and follow me, we are kiwago mighty are we.

there's plenty more cheesy camp songs where that came from. i got back yesterday and first took a shower than watched 2 hours of t.v. then slept. it was heavenly. camp kiwago is a camp for homeless kids who either live in shelters or government housing, most of them are from teh brooklyn/queens/bronx area. i was a volunteer leader and katie brounstein was my co-counselor along with two other girls in their twenties, one from pittsbourg, the other from thunder bay, ontario (major canadian bonding). we started off with 7 kids in our cabin, one, aleiah, left cause she got into too many physical fights with teh other girls and we had to restrain her too much. another girl, janiqua, had to go the hospital cause of a bladder infection which they believed to be related to sexual abuse. but she came back, thank god, she was teh sweetest girl. one girl, isea lived in a women's battered shelter with her mom and brother, she couldn't be on teh website (ask me for the address if you wanna see all mygirls and their stories) cause of the guy that stalks the family. one girl joked about getting sexually abused on the bus when the girls were sharing similar stories of men following them home from school. one girl's mom was 13 when she had her and she has 7 other children. my kids were difficult and frustrating, constantly swearing at me, not listening, complaining about wanting to go home, getting into fights with teh other oldest boys, dancing around naked in the cabin to "my neck my back lick my .. just like that" but on the last day almost half of them cried adn exchanged addresses with us. they were genuinely going to miss us. it was such a rewarding experience even if it was for only 2 weeks, its amazing how attache dyou can get to kids in sucha short amount of time. i took a lot of pictures so i'll post them up.
i also learned a lot of ghetto slang
"i'm gonna snuff you, i ain't playin witch you, i did nuftin, why you fienin" its hilarious how a popular song like grindin is transformed from white people just singing the grindin part to this camp where every camper regardless boy or girl knew all the words. my girl's favorite was mario's just a friend, tey all love mario.
i can;t wait to go back and work with youngest girls in a couple days
shout out to my kiwago livejournal friend kendra: my feet are so disgustingly broken and callused haha , lotion feels so weird, but my bed was so niiice.

"Now, Sonita, is chlaymdia stuff cheesy?" "Yes, Mr. Poppy, the symptons include vaginal discharge"

Tue, 11 Jun 2002 01:35:44 GMT

whispers to jeff, is that cheesy?
2 weeks left, hellssssss yea. then mangalika comes to visit ! i need a confidant who understands no matter what i try to say even if it is in another language. i got a pretty necklack that's turquiose i might wear it tomorrow. i went to the ortho's today: "you don't want your braces on for your honeymoon, right?" "jesus, i want them off for senior pictures" gives me a dubious look. fuckin' rubber bands, why couldn't my family have been rich when i was in 3rd grade so i didn't have to deal with this sheet now. i love the sun. no one cares. i haven't talked to ewa in so long. i'm such a horrible friend. i can't even put an adjective infront of friend cause i dont' resemble taht at all. all i have to do is pick up the phone and call and i can't do it . i just can't deal with the silence. what do you do when you have a friend who lives in another country, and her mom dies in 2 months of some rare disease taht no one saw coming. you try to talk to her online make excuses up aobut exams but she knows its a lie and so do you . i cn'at do it, i can't face my own insecurities when it comes to death. her mom was such a beautiful human being. somebody make me call her. please.

"i'm the neighborhood pusher... grindin"

Thu, 23 May 2002 23:58:44 GMT

i'm so satasficatorily exhausted, the damn poetry contest is finally over, no more receiting during random times during the day, sorry ppls. no... sats. ug. but it's a four day weekend and that's a good thing. instead of prom we went into the city and glimpsed seth green. i'm such a bad person, i lie so much. now 30 ppl think i got seth's number and we're goin out to dinner this saturday. another 20 think we're engaged adn i'm pregnant w/ his babay. only laura and christy will know the truth of taht night.. filled w/ inside jokes about teh notorious threesome between skeets, jester and puss. we are so creative.. yet accurate.

yeah you , come and give me a kiss better make it fast or else i'm gonna get pissed

Mon, 06 May 2002 00:43:58 GMT

does anyone have a some extra time.....GIVE IT TO ME.. i pay good dolla

get up on this

twurkin' it good

say a prayer for me

Thu, 18 Apr 2002 22:24:19 GMT

i don't want to do my homework, no one's online and i'm frustrated. in general with a lot of situations. nobody at school is pissing me off which is really good. i had boston market chicken carver with macroni and cheese.. so so good. then sharona and i went to mandies' where i made sharon try on short shorts that didn't have a fly but string that tied at the crotch and a belly shirt. we were all the way in the back and this chick bursts in on us when i don't evn have my shirt fully on yet and shes complimented on sharon's outfit adn we explained we were kinda making fun of it cause of the new school dress code.. she still had an spazz and wouldn't stop telling sharon how good she looked. freaky yo. i love how laura is obsessed with not obsessing. i love how i got a C in jr. port. death to suittle. what a way to ruin my report card and ... my life.. haha not really. we have monday off ppl HOLLA, can we make it productive let's get together.
overused question of the week: are you going to prom?

i feel like tap dancing with you

Sun, 31 Mar 2002 22:09:53 GMT

trivial trivial.. i delete all my entries and then write general statements cause i'm a scaredy cat.. what if so and so read.. regardless i'm feeling quite elated today.. things are going my way .. and i need.. to stop.. doing.. that ..! No more periods, speaking of periods i want to have a baby. i just saw riding in cars with boys and let me tell you i was ready to go get a sperm donor cause no boy would want to actually get that close to me. who wants to donate some sperm?? my sister bought little tank tops from cosco that were too big for her so she gave them to me.. they fit me cause i have bigger boobs than she does.. taht's what i tell myself anyway. big chocolate easter bunnies are so good especially the pink ears mmmm. my grandparents are so funny. i told my grandma that we were going to see an indian movie called 'american chai'. "grandma what does chai mean?" "chai..chai.. thai food?.. chai oh tea" grandpa in teh background yells "chai.. C- H- A- I.. mean to wish" "grandma where are you going for vacation" "oh some island off of north america" grandpa in teh background "off of north africa". i love elderlies.

"some get a kick from cocaine, i'm sure taht if i took even one sniff that would bore me .. terrifically, too. but i get a kick out of you" ella fitzergerald.

ssssstupid computer.. i haaaaaaaaaate you.

Sun, 17 Mar 2002 20:31:26 GMT

why can i not run more than 2 programs without my computer having a heartache/hernia. i played teh spongebob game on playstation!!! it was awesome!! i got to catch jellyfish and patrick helped me and gary was by my side and he meowed and.. i need to breathe. and i'm getting a white hoodie with gary on it and it says meow underneath. everyone i know loves spongebob.. old or young.. it's such a conversation piece. it's the new substitute for weather. instead of "it's a beautiful day today" you hear.. "that spongebob episode was the bomb digggggity". hmm maybe not quite like that. that use to be my mom's favorite song "no diggity" someone please explain to me what that is referring to.. am i that stupid? i washed my hair with johnson and johnson's baby shampoo, i keep smelling it..its smells.. clean.. like a baby's freshly powdered bottom. i hate it when my mom remembers that i'm grounded.. luckily she remembered on sunday which meant i got to go out fri and sat. but i was gonna hit the sales at kohl's with sharon..and i'm grounded next weekend too. "grounded" is such a icky word. i hate the aim sound of the door opening every time someone signs on. i'm going to fix taht right now. maybe i can make it fart instead.

i'm wish i was a hunter

Fri, 08 Mar 2002 22:34:54 GMT

i really have to pee..i love how my vagina is capable of giving me a signal that allows me to know when i have to empty my bladder. i was watching vh1's top 100 women in rock.. very inspirational..those women kick ass. why don't we have more rock girls in our school. it's either punk/emo, or popular bitchy pop poops. no hard core janis joplin/ella fitzergeralds. i guess i'm gonna have to grow my hair really long and put twigs in it and then wear a big shawl and start moaning a lot. then i'll be just like janis. "girls can wear jeans, cut their hair short, wear shirts and boots, see it's ok to be a boy, but for a boy to look like a girl is degrating, because you think that being a girl is degrating, but secretly.. you'd love to know what it's like.. wouldn't you? what it feels like for a girl." i love people that make you laugh so hard taht you cry. people that change your ordinary mood into an extraordinary mood. people who you can't seem to get enough of even if it makes you neglect your responsibilities just so you can talk to them a bit more. ahhh i'm turning into a mushy mushter.
p.s. i hate stupid people
p.p.s. i REALLY hate stupid people.

shut the fuck up and sit the fuck down

Tue, 05 Mar 2002 23:54:58 GMT

now let me clear my throat..
i hate people who say what's up... just stop. do you expect an answer? do you think you are saying the cool password that makes people wanna be friends with you? "what's up" "nothing much" "u" "same" WHAT A WASTE OF ENERGY, try something that actually shows you give a shit. how are you.. how was practice yesterday.. are you feeling better, i know you've been sick... anything just not what the fuck is up.
i hate people who need attention so much that it turns them into something they are not. granted.. everybody wants attention sometimes.. i'll be the first to admit that sometimes i'm loud to entertain/get attention but i do it cause that's who i am and i know the reasons behind my actions. other people who shall remain nameless, go out of their way to make everyone listen to their annoying high nasal voices (this ironically applies to a lot of people.. yeah you!). are you that narcissitic that you love the sound of your voice that much? then don't have the audacity to tell other people to shut up just so you can talk some more.
i hate people who cause drama in their lives just to stay entertained. the whole cult issue... get over it. it's done with. it's been solved. everybody now (again with a few nameless exceptions) is fine with the situation and is acting maturely.. keep word people maturely. don't drag it out..dont twist to make it seem like you are the victim and you are highly involved when nobody really gives two shits about you. harsh, but true
i hate people who are arrogant beyond belief..let's break it down. no you aren't that smart, no you aren't that attractive and yes you do look ridiclous trying to be those things.
i hate people who are fake. stop trying to impress others. stop letting others make your decisions for you.stop making excuses for your failures.. if you say you are dumb/ugly/nobody likes you then obviously you are projecting that image and people will react to you accordingly
my fingers hurt from typing... to be continued..that's right .. to be fucking continued.. don't think i'm even close to being done.

i don't wanna fight tonight

Sat, 02 Mar 2002 16:11:53 GMT

I am 100% CANADIAN!!!

(Take the Canadian-ness test)

yesterday we went on a field trip to heightstown high school. Simone and I were facilators.. not very good ones but that's ok.. i mean it was our first time. it was informative. this one girl told us all about the gangs in her school.. the bloods adn somethings else and how if you are going out with one of the guys in the gang then you are automatically a gang member. they have fights all the time, it was scary. then i got home and i watched brace face. suzanne came over and since our god damn vcr wasn't working we couldn't watch almost famous so we had to talk which was fine cause we talked about what we think of randolph.. it was weird .. she said she likes it here better. but just before she left her friends were kinda getting bad.. taking drugs. becoming sluts whatever. and she was saying how here people were good, they don't do that stuff, or at least not all of them do. apparently she could have never found someone like pete in her old school. someone who has values and goes to church every sunday. but for me those things aren't important. i need diversity and people who are interesting not the same fucking personality over and over again. but she feels more comfortable in this conservative environmetn.. i guess that's why i'd rather be in oakville, i 'm not conservative, religious i dont' care if you take drugs, have sex as long as its not destructive and effecting others. but we both agreed that the town sucks.. i mean area wise. somepeople.. actually a lot of people really like it here.. with no central town and all. why???? maybe cause they dont' really know any better which is understandable.. i mean if you ahve nothing to compare to i guess randolph must seem ok.

Take me home

Fri, 22 Feb 2002 23:58:10 GMT

i'm such a loser and i love it.. i've turned into a homebody.. i feel like a grandma, i should take up knitting. the olympics are so exciting .. well they were for a while. i love that weird game where they slide on the ice trying to knock a flat bowling ball into a dart board in the ice. my sister was being funny she was asking me if they had to work out for that. i'm sure it doesn't require a lot of physical prowess but hey scrubbing and sliding after a flat bowling ball takes talent. we did taebo in gym today.. suk could not take his eyes of billy blank's black boobs. now that was a hot sentence. yesterday we practice rumpelstikstein (spelling?) i'm the king who falls in love with the miller's daughter(kim) because she can straw gold. i mean spin or something. dan hemmer is rumpel... it's makes me laugh so hard to see him jump around a pretend fire saying "today i bake, tomorrow i brew, then i'll fetch the Queen's child too. How good taht she cna't proclaim that rumpelstilzchen is my name!"

my nose is running, it's running away, it's eloping with my boogers to santa fe

Thu, 31 Jan 2002 22:30:02 GMT

i never get sick, ever never ever. so i managed to get the flu and i stayed home from school. i am in love with jerry springer, i watched like 4 episodes, that show is so addictive. my mom let's me watch jerry springer, but she doesnt' let me watch jackass, go figure. best quote from a guy cheating on his wife "hooker..$100, motel...$75... having your sexual fantasies come true.. priceless" i was so impressed with this man's intelligence. i think they are running out of texan hicks (no offense emily) and are now resorting to 25 year old guys from oklahoma. second best quote of the day "jerry, i'm here to tell my husband that i'm a whore", no she didn't refer to herself as an escort or even a prostitute... but a whore. who calls themself a whore? i missed tutoring today at the middle school, i feel irresponsible. i wanna hear more stories from the kid who is best friends with elkin and kevin ritter (so he claims). he's in 7th grade and tells me stories about finding rats in the boys bathroom and stepping on them. funny kid.

Sat, 12 Jan 2002 23:27:29 GMT

of course.. i <3 you gary.

I hate you, LiveJournal, I hate you so much.

Sat, 08 Dec 2001 23:32:13 GMT

when ever i rarely feel the inclination to post i can't get to the fucking site, it's so frustrating. suzanne came over today and i played her techno , and she called it a gino-beat, it was so good to hear that. i should really start using the good ole' canadian slang again. she also told me there was a kid in school who had a tim horton's t-shirt. but had never been to canada... weird. it snowed today and i wanted to go play in teh snow. but sharon 's gone i think, and there is nobody else in my neighborhood who would want to have a snowball fight with me so i have to watch the pretty flakes come down. my hair smells really good, herbal essences. but my pants smell bad cause i accidentally wet myself. people wonder who their inspiration is in life. i have found mine. i have found my hero.

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